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quadfart
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posted on 05-31-2010 at 18:08 |
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its all gone. everything. gone. i think im done.
she gets all of nothing. i am a below average earner and she was too lazy to work.
she gets the house(payment) everything in it a car the kids0. i get a truck that i replaced the enginge 1 week ago and it broke 3 days ago. im 30, homeless, carless, jobless, i dont have an education, and back to being misserable.
im staying w/the only friend iv ever had but he lives on a ranch in the desert where there are NO jobs and NO neighbors...no hope.
he has guns laying around. iv always admired how people actually go through with it. does one get drunk first? drugs? what?
iv had enough. my life has been good but to no american standards. iv been, abandoned, adopted, abused, molested, addicted, incarcerated and finally brow beaten.
how many times must a man hit rock bottom before he finally gives up on happiness?
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quadfart
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posted on 05-31-2010 at 18:14 |
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and for those that want to say that suicide is not the final answer, your WRONG. it is the end-all to the pain. i find that those people are the ones that have lead a happy life. not people that have eaten out of garbage cans or have unset mended bones-not by choice. positive people have always had a place to go when times get tough.
this question is not for those people. sorry.
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fllv1985
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posted on 06-02-2010 at 11:59 |
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DON'T LOSE HOPE
Hey man, I understand what you are going through. I have been through many of the same things you have described. One thing about life that I've learned is that sometimes its awesome and sometimes it sucks. I'm not going to try and convince you not to end your own life but I will say this.
A. You said you were living at your friends house right now, therefore you are not homeless. He lives on a ranch so does he have work that you can do for him?
B. I'm sure if he lives out in the middle of nowhere there is at least a local bar or something within a five mile radius. Maybe just go out and grab some drinks? Trust me man even if you can get out of the house and just go walk for a while it will help your overall mental status.
C. You said your buddy with the ranch is your only friend. Don't you think its a little selfish to use HIS gun to kill yourself in HIS home that he is allowing you to sleep in? You don't think that that is extremely mean to do to someone else? You gotta consistently make an honest effort to get yourself OUT of the mentality that you are in. You still have options man just look around and try and do something about it instead of wallowing in your own self pity.
Just so that you know that I'm not just a "Happy" person who has never been through anything I want you to know that I have been an addict, an orphan, abandoned, homeless, suicidal, lost, and helpless before. Guess what! I'm not anymore. Sure I still hit my ups and downs like the next guy but I didn't give up and that is the most important thing you have to learn in this life. Try and look at the big picture man and brush the dirt off your shoulders and straighten yourself out!
Sincerely,
fllv1985
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